Lord Shadow

Chapter 1734: Trying to Forget

Sina knows that both Azief and Sofia has this weird connection with each other.

But this is the first time that they really seem to be broken up.

And she want both Azief to be happy. It would be good if they could be happy with each other.

But if that couldnʼt be, at least they both should be happy with the people they love. Sina has seen many tragedies.

Since, the Fall until today he had seen so many deaths.

Some happens to her friends; some happen to her acquittances.

As she grow stronger and her influence grows wider and her ability become even more heaven defying, she rarely lost her friends to tragic circumstances again.

And during the Weronian war she was one of the most active participants in saving people.

In that war she has seen some terrible stuff but she also sees a certain kind of virtue.

Evil and good fighting against each other and those abstract concept like love, loyalty, righteousness might not be visible but they are strong.

Only in the darkest moment these light shines the brightest.

It is like the darkness of the world shining a light to these virtues that people thought has been forgotten

The world is not all filled with evil people.

It is not all dark.

And good people is still there and light is still there

And Sina outlook on life also had changed.

And because she experience the loss of many friends, she never wanted to lose more friends.

And out of all friends that she had make after the Fall, Azief and Sofia is the closest person to her.

They were like family.

They are her new family

And because they are like family, Sina is the only one that could say something to them and they would listen. Both Sofia and Azief is stubborn people.

They are also very proud and rarely admit their mistake

The stronger they are, the harder it is for them to admit their mistake.

Even though at times they would let down their prides, at times, there is also occasion where they could not put it down.

Having pride is good. It is kind of a confidence. But having too much of something is not always good.

Especially when that something is pride.

Sina could see that Azief would never be able to erase Sofia from his heart just like Sofia would never be able to erase Azief in her heart.

They shared too much with each other

And she could not help but think to herself ”In the past, humans live at most to two hundred yeas. And that is an anomaly and not the common age. Most people die in their sixties or their seventies. But now.... they have forever to contend with”

Thinking of this, Sina feel clam.

Because all of this might just be some flavorful story that they would tell each other after tens of thousands of years had passes.

Time washes away everything.

She sighed and take a sip of her tea. Sofia looking at Sina like this could not help but scoffed ”Are you imitating Azief? He is always like this. When its something he did not want to talk about, he would pretends to be mysterious and take a sip of his coffee while he thinks of a reason or justification”

Sina hearing this could not help but chuckles. And Sofia face turns red because she knows why. But both of them did not say it clearly and so Sofia shuts her moth ”I donʼt know what your feeling are Sofia. We rarely meet each other in the past couple of months and I am not a mind reader like Hirate. But you here, with Raymond invitation.... you know why Raymond call you and not the others right?”

Hearing this Sofia could not help but sigh.

Sina did not let up. Instead, she ask again ”I hope you are not stringing him along. Raymond is a good man. Regardless of his position as the Grand Commanded of the World Government, he is a good man. He is polite with people, easygoing, bright like a sunshine, cares about the people under him, love his soldiers like a son and he always think about the world”

She sighs a bit and then continue ”This is a kind man. If this is just another drama between you and Azief, then solve it by yourself. And donʼt involve other people in it. Donʼt play with other people feeling and tire other people out and yourself in the process”

There is silence in the room but then Sofia sighed and spoke ”Azief has Katarina”

Hearing this Sina scoffed and then shot back ”So, you have to have Raymond. Only then will it be fair? Are you that childish?” ”Iʼm not saying that” she said calmly. Sofia is not angry. ”You know his feeling towards you right?”

Sofia nodded.

No matter how dense a woman is, they would surely notice when a man wanted to court you.

Raymond is not exactly subtle in his attempt.

Before, Sofia and Azief is a couple and Raymond back away.

But now she is single.

And Raymond would not miss a chance.

He is brave in war and in love.

He knows he has to fight for happiness.

In this Raymond is very much like Katarina.

As long as they did not do anything wrong that would prick their conscience, they would be brave in all fronts ”I have good feeling for Raymond”

Sina wanted to say something more but then she shakes her head. ”Good feelings are not love.” That is what she wanted to say but she decided against it.

Good feelings might not be love. But it could always blossom into something more. At least that is how it happens between her and Loki

She should not meddle that much. Those two is already an adult and they do not need her to keep nagging at them

She could only sigh and then said ”I hope you are not using him”

Sofia shakes her head.

Only she knows the truth and only she knows her true feeling.

She do like Raymond.

Like is not love however.

And she is not trying to string Raymond along. And she had made it very clear to him.

But in this world, there is not many places that could accept her because of her sensitive identity.

She is Death Monarch woman.

Even though she is no longer related to Pandemonium, which world powers would are accept her.

Of course, she could always strike it alone.

But she wanted to grow stronger as fast as possible and that is not just possible without some backup and some support.

Even though she is powerful, she is not invincible in this world.

And because of her relations with Death Monarch, there is always people targeting her.

She knows that even though she has broken up with Death Monarch, Sasha still send some of her operative to secure her safety

Why?

Because there is still people targeting her in the dark. Everyone that is close to Death Monarch had this target on their back.

Some of it is even operatives of the world powers.

Sashah is worried that the action of kidnapping her to control Death Monarch would happen once again.

Even though the last time it happens the participants was badly injured and the warning is clear to the world, there is always audacious people in the world

She knew what Raymond thinks of her and she just said to Raymond to take it slow.

And she thinks that at least if she did this, maybe Azief would not feel that guilty.

Azief to her is fragile.

He might not show it in his demeanor but he is like that. At least if he saw her with someone else, maybe he would not feel too conflicted.

There were times that Sofia wanted to act out. She wanted to display her sadness to the world so that Azief would comfort her. But that is only her thoughts

She has grown up. As much as Azief has grown up, she also has grown up. And she did not want him to hurt.

She is hurt however.

She never said yes to him when he proposed to her. But she just said not yet. Not...not ever.

But in the end, he chose Katarina. And maybe this is better. Sofia could never accept another betrayal in her life.

Especially if that someone is Azief. She has been betrayed in her life before. And each pain taught her to shield herself.

And then she falls in love with Azief. She might not say it enough but she loves him. And just the thought of him betraying her...she could not accept it.

Anyone else and she could recover from it. But if its Azief that betrayed her.... thinking about it makes her heart constricted and she feel her breath would go out

It would break her. So...she pushed him away before he could do that to her.

Because she could see him torn. Did he really loves her? Or is it some lingering affection of the past?

He never cheated on her but she could see Katarina attracted him. How could she have confidence when she has to contend with a woman who is called the most beautiful woman in the world? her confidence was never been that great since the beginning.

But her heart has been stolen by him and it is not so easy for that heart to return back to her.

So, for now, she simply wanted to forget.

But saying that is easier that doing it. >>