My Husband, Warm The Bed

Chapter 251 Fear and helplessness

However, it was useless at all. Jian Ran was so weak that she could collapse at any time, just like how she felt when she was sick in the past.

Perhaps it was because he was sick, and he was sick more seriously than usual. A single dose of medicine was no longer of any use.

Thinking about it, Jian Ran walked into the living room, poured herself a cup of water and took another pill.

After eating, Jian Ran returned to her room and laid on her bed. She closed her eyes, hoping that the effects of the medicine would quickly come out, so that she wouldnʼt feel so uncomfortable.

Jian Ran waited for a good while, but not only did her body not feel any better, she was also covered in cold sweat.

Two years ago, when she was discharged from the hospital, as long as she insisted on taking the medicine, she wouldnʼt have felt that anything was amiss. Why did she suddenly do this today?

Jian Ran could not understand, she was so sad that she rolled over in her bed. She wanted to call his father, but did not want to worry him.

The phone had not left her hands yet, but she had received a call. She took the phone and saw that it was Qin Yue calling, causing her heart to soften for a moment. When she answered the call, she heard Qin Yueʼs low voice: ”What are you doing?”

”I ??” Jian Ran took a deep breath, she suddenly felt like crying from being wronged, but she suppressed her grievances and tried to use a calm tone to speak, ”I seem to be sick.”

”Donʼt hang up. Wait for me.”

Following that, Jian Ran heard the sound of the car door closing. She held her phone and buried her head into the pillow, feeling extremely uncomfortable, as if ten thousand ants were devouring her heart.

Not long after, Qin Yueʼs voice came out of the phone: ”Open up.”

”What door?” Jian Ran blurrily did not react. She, who had long been muddleheaded, would not have expected Qin Yue to appear in front of her house.

”Open your door.” Qin Yueʼs voice came out from the phone again, sounding a little anxious.

”Huh?” Jian Ran let out a silly ”Ah”, and used her muddled brain to think for a bit, before realizing that Qin Yue was asking her to open the door.

She got up and dragged her limp body out of the room. When she reached the door, she reached out to grab the doorknob.

”Jian Ran ?? ??” Qin Yueʼs voice came from outside the house.

”Iʼm opening the door. Wait a moment.” Jian Ran fumbled for a long time before she finally opened the door. After opening the door, she could not even see Qin Yueʼs appearance clearly, ”Are you Qin Yue?”

”Itʼs me. I am Qin Yue, your Qin Yue. ” Qin Yue carried her by the waist and left.

”Qin Yue, what are you doing?” Jian Ran pushed him, but he didnʼt have the strength in his body, so he laid on the ground in his arms.

”Iʼll take you home.” When he returned to their home, he would no longer leave her alone outside. He would never let her suffer the pain of loneliness again.

”Home?” Whose home? ” Jian Ran muttered to herself, ”The place where my father is is is my home, if he is not here, I do not know where my home is.”

She would be sick, helpless, and afraid. It must be that her father was not with her, it must be that.

For the past three years, her father had never left her. Today, when her father suddenly left, she was so helpless.

Hearing Jian Ranʼs words, Qin Yue strongly tightened the strength in his arms, tightly hugging her in his embrace, he said in a heavy voice, ”Jian Ran, I forbid you from speaking nonsense.”

Blame him for not protecting her properly. Blame him for causing her to encounter such a painful situation, causing her to lose her past self.

”Qin Yue? You must be Qin Yue? Who is Qin Yue? ” Jian Ran mumbled in a daze, ”I donʼt seem to even know you. It seems like Iʼve known you for a long time. This feeling is really strange. ”

”Jian Ran...” Other than shouting her name, Qin Yue didnʼt know what else she could do.

Jian Ran then continued, ”Not only do I not know you, I donʼt even know who I am. But I canʼt remember who I am, what happened to me in the past I donʼt know, and a lot of times I feel as if I could disappear at any moment. Itʼs as if I donʼt belong in this world. ”

”I was scared, but I didnʼt dare tell my father that I didnʼt want him to worry about me. Heʼs not young either, just a relative like me. He didnʼt want to tell me about the past. It must have been for my own good. But it also makes me understand that the past is definitely not a good thing. ”

”I keep telling myself not to think about the past, but I canʼt help thinking about it. What on earth has happened to me that frightened me so much that I wouldnʼt want to think about my past? ”

”Why am I talking so much to a stranger like you? If I told you, you wouldnʼt understand how bad my heart felt. You will never understand how scared I am. ”

Alone, she always pretended to be indifferent, as if she didnʼt care about anything and didnʼt make any friends.

It wasnʼt that she didnʼt want to make friends, but that she was afraid to make friends.

If one day someone asks her, ”What university did you go to before, where did you work before, before...”

When others asked her these simple, basic questions.

How should she answer?

If she answered honestly and told others that I couldnʼt remember anything from the past, would those people treat her like someone out of the ordinary?

”Jian Ran, I understand. I understand everything you said.” Qin Yue kept telling her. His heart felt like it was being crushed and he found it hard to breathe.

This was his Jian Ran. No matter what, she was always smiling, using her unique smile to hide the worry and fear in her heart. She pretended to be strong, as though no one could do anything to her.

He hated himself for having lost her, and for having lost her for so long. How did she live these three years?

”Haha ??” Jian Ran laughed coldly as she shook her head, revealing a smile that was uglier than a cry. ”Even my father doesnʼt understand, how can you understand?”

It was unknown whether it was because his brain wasnʼt clear or if it was because he was an ill person who was particularly weak, but these things and fears that had never been spoken of by others were all revealed by Jian Ran in a single breath.

Maybe it was because he had been alone for too long, and had no friends for too long, that he could so easily jump into Qin Yueʼs net, and never be able to pull himself out again.

Even though she knew he had seen his dead wife through her, she still charged at him like a moth to a flame.

Many times, Jian Ran would envy Qin Yueʼs ”Jian Ran”.

Although that Jian Ran was no longer by Qin Yueʼs side, they shared a common and beautiful memory. There was also a person who deeply loved and cared for her, and even had such a cute daughter.

And she?

She had only her father, and nothing else, not even the memory everyone should have.