D.E.M.O.N.S: Getting Summoned Weekly isn't so Bad

Chapter 596: Insecurities on Both Sides

This chapter is from Lilyʼs perspective.

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”Um…. If weʼre going to be admitting to things…” started Lily hesitantly. Even with Katʼs admittance Lily felt it was a more reasonable question. Kat simply didnʼt know, and ignorance was never something you should be made fun of for, especially in Lilyʼs mind. Of course, she ignored this when it came to herself. Especially since a lot of her concerns had to do with Katʼs opinions. Things Lily really had to ask to find out.

”I… see I was wondering…” Lily found the words hard to say, and Kat noticed this. She pulled Lily onto her knee so that she still had access to Lilyʼs back where she started tracing circles. Lily let the motions calm her down.

*Why is this so hard?! Kat was able to tell me she feels bad about the fact she left me with Mum even if it was the right thing to do. I didnʼt even really answer her. I said it was fine, and it was. I donʼt hold it against her and I donʼt even know what Iʼd prefer she did if it happened again. I mean I didnʼt even give her an answer I just kissed her. Which was great somehow despite my- No Lily donʼt get lost in the kiss. Focus. Just ask her. Itʼs not hard. And think about a proper answer for Kat. She deserves one even if you donʼt have one. She deserves it.*

”What… um… what exactly… no ok letʼs not do that.” Lily aborted her attempt to ask Kat what she liked, thinking it might sound like fishing for compliments after Kat had shared genuine worries. ”See… ok… look. With this Memphis transformation, as far as Iʼm aware they make a whole new body for me… so… I… would you like me to change anything?”

The look of utter confusion on Katʼs face was a balm to her soul that she didnʼt know she needed. Lily felt herself shiver as she let out a long sigh. *I donʼt know why I thought sheʼd do anything else. I know some girls that would kill for the chance to look better, many of them just to snag a boyfriend, and my girlfriend canʼt even figure out why Iʼd ask the question. If that doesnʼt destroy any body image issues I had nothing well.*

Lily gave Kat a quick kiss on the cheek which brought a smile to Katʼs face. Didnʼt chase away the confusion, but Kat would happily accept kisses. Lily seeing this debated explaining further or not but decided it was worth it. Even if Kat didnʼt want her to change anything she might. ”I see youʼre confused,” Lily cringed as she said it, but didnʼt really know what else to start off with, ”but what I mean is… I can basically design a whole new body for myself and Iʼm thinking about if I should change anything? What do you think?”

Kat still looked slightly confused but she answered, ”I mean… thatʼs completely up to you isnʼt it? Itʼs your body”

*No Kat. Well, yes, it is my body but I feel like you should get some say in this. I donʼt spend any time looking at myself. Actually, if weʼre thinking about it this way itʼs a much more important choice for Kat because sheʼs the one that would get to admire the results more often.*

”True but youʼre the one who would be looking at it most of the time. So if you had the chance to change anything what would you change?” asked Lily as innocently as she could, knowing this line on questioning was a bit leading.

”Nothing” Kat answered easily and Lily felt herself melt into Katʼs side.

*Oh yes. I have the best girlfriend. Given the chance to basically customize me she choses to completely ignore the option. Then prompted to pick just one thing. Just one… and she still chooses nothing.

Ok now that Iʼve soaked up that high praise I should explain why that answer isnʼt quite ideal.* ”Well, thatʼs sweet and all Kat but some things will have to change. Like Iʼm pretty sure at the very least Iʼll end up with cat ears and a tail. Maybe a horn as well which I really hope isnʼt going to be in a place thatʼs easy to lock with your horns. Then the eyes. I really donʼt know if Iʼll end up with cat eyes or not.

”Along with that… should I be taller? Shorter? With the tail and ears my balance will have already changed and my bones and muscles might as well. So relearning to walk would be on the list anyway. Oh and glasses. I wonʼt need those afterwards. I guess I could ask them not to fix my eyes… but that feels wrong.”

Kat first gave Lily a hug and then got a thoughtful look on her face. ”Well… I donʼt really care about the eyes. I like your eyes, but if they have to be changed thatʼs fine. I… Iʼm not sure if theyʼd be better or worse after the change, I guess Iʼd have to see… but Iʼll let you make that call yourself. I really have no idea.

”I totally agree with the horns. If you do still have one in your human form the most important thing is that it doesnʼt get in the way. Sadly I think it would get in the way pretty much wherever they are… so that might be an issue. Something we can work around easily, but an issue none the less. Um… as for height…”

Kat actually got a sheepish look at that and Lily found her curiosity peaked. *I wonder what Katʼs going to say about that. Does she like me being short? Would she rather I was taller? I find myself strangely curious. Itʼs weird because I know it isnʼt a kink, but why would she focus on my height otherwise?*

”I think it should stay about the same. I mean, if it changes a bit thatʼs fine or if you really want to change it thatʼs fine too… but it just works so well.” Lily gained a slight tinge of confusion to her eyes which Kat noticed and continued to explain. ”Ok, look… I hope this doesnʼt sound weird but youʼre like the perfect height when compared to me.

”Youʼre just short enough that when I hug you, you can burry your face in my shoulder, but if youʼre sitting on my lap like this you can lean against my face. On top of that you arenʼt so short that itʼs awkward to lean down and kiss you, and youʼre tall enough to kiss me without trouble. Plus if weʼre side by side on the cough or something and I slouch you can rest on your shoulder and I can rest on your head. It just sort of works.”

*Holy shit Kat found a practical reason to care about my height. I mean… sheʼs shockingly correct. I hadnʼt really noticed. I mean I did but I donʼt think I considered just how unlikely it would be for all of these things to work out. The most thought Iʼve put into Katʼs height is how long it makes her legs. Mmm. Legs.*

Lily shook herself again, knowing that a serious conversation was not the time to think about how great Katʼs legs where. Most of the time it probably wasnʼt quite appropriate but it was also well worth it most of the time so that was fine. Before Lily could get too lost though Kat actually had more points to make, which was as slight surprise. ”I suppose you could make yourself taller, so that you were the same amount taller than me as I currently am you… but I just feel like my horns would get in the way.”

”Ok so certainly no height change” said Lily with finality. ”I donʼt really care about my height that much,” *Because who cares how tall I am? My girlfriendʼs height is much more important.* ”so keeping it the same is no trouble. Are you sure about the eyes? What about fixing them?”

Kat shrugged. ”I said already that you can make that choice. As to your glasses… well… Iʼm not so sure. I think it would look strange to see you without your glasses considering Iʼve always known you to have them. I guess it would be up to you? I thought it looked a little strange those few times you wore contacts… but I could get used to it”

*Hmmm, thatʼs… Iʼm not sure what to make of that. I agree with Kat I like my glasses. I donʼt really want to get rid of them either… yeah ok. Keep the glasses. What about my hair though? I can change a lot about my hair…*

”Hey Kat what about my hair?” asked Lily

”What about it? It looks nice and I enjoy rubbing my face in it. Wait… does that sound weird? I think it sounds weird but maybe it was just phrasing?” said Kat unsure.

*My girlfriend likes my hair! My scratchy all over the place, overly bushy but plain brown hair.*? Sometimes it was nice fishing for compliments. Even if it was an accident.