Venerated Venomous Consort

Gu Xietian’s expression suddenly turned bitter. “He hated me back then, so much so that he refused to use his own family name and changed it to his mother’s surname instead. No matter which name he calls himself, he is still your brother. He is still my son.”

Curiously, Gu Xijiu looked at him with bright eyes. “I am not quite sure about what happened between you and Tiannuo. What made him hate you so much?”

Gu Xietian rubbed his temples. “I was blinded. I mistreated him as a way to make his mother angry. I am sure that his feelings were greatly hurt. He used to be a sensitive child. After his disappearance, I fell into deep remorse for what I did to him. I have been thinking about him all these years, hoping that we could meet again.”

Gu Xietian looked much older than he did eight years ago. He sat contemplating about the past. Sometimes, he talked as though no one was listening. Other times, he seemed as though he was sharing his story with Gu Xijiu. “He was very smart as a child. I was proud of him, so I thought him horse riding and archery. We would go out and play, sometimes. Before he was eight years old, he was very close to me. We had a good relationship. When I had to go to war, he would cling onto my leg and refuse to let me go. It was my fault. I was blinded. Not only did I hurt your mother, but I also hurt him as well. Recently, I have been dreaming about him. In my dreams I saw his face as a child again, tugging at the corner of my robe and telling me that he wanted to be a man.”

Gu Xijiu patted on his shoulder gently and smiled. “Let bygones be bygones. General Gu, the reason why you miss him so much is that you do not have a son. You do have two beautiful wives, so you can always have more children. Maybe I will have more brothers and sisters in future. When you have children, you will soon forget the one you once loved.”

Gu Xietian did not know what to say. It was true that he still had his two concubines, but they were merely the mothers of his children. He bought another residence for them to live comfortably and had not visited them for many years.

Certainly, he did not plan to marry another woman, so there was no way he could have more children.

First of all, he was no longer keen on having another relationship. Secondly, he did it to atone for his guilt. Thirdly, he did it as a punishment for himself.

If he could handle his sexual impulse more appropriately, his family would not be broken. He would not lose both his son and his wife.

He smiled tightly. “Xijiu, I know I am wrong. You don’t have to make me feel even worse than I already do. I will not marry another wife for the rest of my life, nor will I have another relationship. My only hope is that when I die, I get to see your mother again in my afterlife, so I can apologize to her and ask for her forgiveness.”

Gu Xijiu shook her head in dismay. She was not surprised by the cycle of life. When one life ended, it would be continued in the next cycle. The future was still unknown. She only wanted to make her present days count.

If she truly loved someone, she would stay with him no matter the circumstances and face any problems together. No one could be entirely sure that they could recognize each other in their next life. What if none of them recalled memories?

She did not want to be sorry. Also, she did not wish to interfere in the affairs between Gu Xietian and Luo Xinglan.

Luo Xinglan remarried. Although her second husband was gone, it did not necessarily mean that she would return to her first husband. Moreover, she still had other children with her. Presumably, she did not want Gu Xietian to find out that she was still alive. The best thing that she could ever want was for Gu Xietian to move on and for them to forget about one another.

Gu Xijiu did not want to be their peacemaker and settle their dispute. If they were destined to be together, they would meet again one day. If not, it would be better for them to stay apart. Therefore, Gu Xijiu did not tell him that Luo Xinglan was still alive.