My Youth Began With Him

Translator: Noodletown Translations Editor: Noodletown Translations

When Xixi heard that Rick had to leave, she grabbed onto Rick’s clothes tightly.

“Xixi…” Rick wanted to say something but he stopped himself.

“Can you… not leave?” Xixi didn’t know she could be so pathetic. Her original intention was to yell at him but the very moment she laid eyes on Rick, she forgot all about that. All she wanted to do was hug him tightly.

Even Rick, who was stone cold, could not bear to see Xixi like that. Her “Can you not leave?” had wavered his determination…

“Godfather, we don’t have much time…” his subordinate rushed Rick once again.

Rick became furious. He took out his gun and pointed it at that subordinate.

“Shut up,” he said.

His subordinates and bodyguards were so scared that they did not dare to move.

Xixi reached out and pulled Rick’s gun to point at her chest.

“Rick, kill me… I’m in so much pain. Shoot me and end all this… For the past three years, I’ve been like a living zombie, living a life without meaning. Nothing brings me joy anymore. Without you, I am nothing. It’s so pathetic of me… There’s no purpose for me to live anymore… I’m probably a failure. I know that even if I can keep you here with me for the short-term, I will not be able to keep you with me forever. If there’s no way for me to make you stay with me, then at the very least, kill me with your own hands. Please fulfill my last wish…” Xixi said with emotional infliction.

When Rick heard her words, his heart was also torn to a million pieces.

“Xixi, please don’t be like this…” Rick normally did not say much and now, he did not know what to say. He didn’t dare to see Xixi not because he was afraid she’d linger by him, but rather because he loved her too deeply. His way of controlling his emotions was to not see her, not talk to her, and not give her any hope. He had to escape from her. Now though, he deeply regretted making such a decision. He was now a godfather of a gang and he could not guarantee Xixi peaceful happiness. He was always engaged in warfare and his life was always in danger. He could not bring Xixi into such a brutal world.

However, Xixi was standing in front of him right now, begging him to kill her.

This pain was worse than death.

When Huo Mian saw this, her face turned pale and she wanted to rush out but Qin Chu stopped her.

“Honey, it’s their problem. Let them solve it themselves. We can’t help.”

Qin Chu understood how tormented Rick felt.

“Honey…” Huo Mian said softly.

“Yes?”

“If you were Rick and I was Xixi right now, would you treat me like this?” Huo Mian suddenly became very pessimistic and sad and asked such a hypothetical question.

Qin Chu hugged her by her waist and whispered into her ears, “You are my world so no matter what, I won’t leave you…”

“Then why did you…” Before Huo Mian could finish her sentence, Qin Chu said, “I left you before so we could have a better future together down the road. Rick, however, left Xixi because he wanted her to be safe. That’s why he wants to leave her forever…”

“But that’s so cruel to Xixi…” Huo Mian exclaimed after listening to Qin Chu’s words.

“No. I think Rick’s the saddest person in this situation. He has to keep all his pain locked up to himself…” Qin Chu and Huo Mian’s opinions differed on this topic.

Just when the two continued their conversation, the sound of a pulled trigger resonated in the silent night sky.

Huo Mian and Qin Chu immediately pushed the door open and ran outside.

They saw Xixi holding onto Rick’s hand and pulling the trigger herself.

The bullet from Rick’s black gun shot through Xixi’s chest and blood started flowing out…

“Xixi…” Rick was devastated.

Xixi slowly fell onto Rick’s chest…