Death Guns In Another World

Chapter 1212 - 1114: Someone Special

After her second example, Kuina went into a trance a state and with eyes filled with a longing she mumbled.

ʼʼShow me those open and loving eyes, for they are the door to my soul. Touch me with those gentle hands and I am made anew, not as clay, but as if my body were reborn in its most perfect form. And so, in this love there is a deep gratitude, a sense that what is given is sacred and transient, passing in time into the eternal cycles of living.ʼʼ

Aliceʼs eyes widened, she was sure Kuina was talking about her master, she may have a zero experience in the matter of love but she could feel how deeply this fox lady loved her master. She was not like this at the beginning but the more times spent with Alex the more her love for him grow, she changed into someone better, less competitive, and more open.

ʼLove might be a good thing.ʼ Alice thought.

ʼʼYou love my master.ʼʼ

ʼʼYou can tell?ʼʼ

She propped her chin in one of her hands and looked up at Alice with a smile.

Alice calmly nodded.

ʼʼI see you are right, I love him like never I thought I would.ʼʼ

The white-haired young lady simply listened as she believed that Kuina had not finished speaking and indeed she had not.

ʼʼYou before him because of my status as the future empress I have always considered alternative lovers. Until I met him. Now, even without him, neither in promise nor bodily presence, there is only my love for him. Should he one day evaporate as water into the sky, that will remain true for all of my days. And so now, for the first time in my life, there are no plans at all...

because you must be free. Love must be free. So all plans stop. It is as if my soul has stopped the search it has been on for a time that feels like forever, as if it no longer sees nor seeks a path, yet sits on soft grass upon a gentle hill. It was the simplest thing for him, with his eyes and voice, his touch and sexy confidence to take what no other ever could.

Itʼs not that I didnʼt want them to, Iʼve wanted a love such as this forever, itʼs simply that they werenʼt able to, as if my soul was in a different room and they didnʼt have a key. Alex had it. He had it as if someone put it in his pocket with a whisper and a four-leaf clover. In a way, when I met him I was stunned. My soul had been alone so long it was almost unsettling to suddenly have company.

To find or seek another would be condemning myself to a lifetime in darkness, knowing full well what I hid from myself before. We can never go back, can we? Once we have felt the real thing. So. All these miles away with the memories of our brief time together. Itʼs all so silly.

Itʼs all so real. Itʼs all so frustrating. Itʼs all so painful. I wouldnʼt have it any other way. Though if I could wish for a magic carpet to bring him here, I would. Iʼd wish it and wait for him forever.

I love him more than anything.ʼʼ

ʼʼThere is no perfect lover, we are all flawed, but knowing those flaws and still loving with all your heart creates perfect love. I will never look further than him as he is my love. If my heart is a flower waiting to bloom, his love is the only sunshine it needs.ʼʼ

Alice could only stare as Kuina showed how much she loved Alex through words, it was to the extent she was forced to blurt out.

ʼʼI wish I could love.ʼʼ

Kuina who was about to say something stopped after hearing those words.

ʼʼYou can love as well, everyone can, you just have to find the one that makes you feel special. The one with whom you feel a special connection.ʼʼ She told her, she wouldnʼt push her into someone not when she wasnʼt sure if her happiness was over there.

ʼʼI will end this debate with something my grandmother used to often say to me when I was twelve years old. [There is nothing more important in life than love. Love binds us to one another and to every good deed we do. It is love that keeps us healthy and positively focused. But love, like any other element of life, needs attention to stay strong.

We donʼt attain it and put it aside like money in a bank account.

We shower our children with love and positive reinforcement, we hold our lovers dear and remind them in our special way how deeply loved and appreciated they are. We love our friends, our homes, and our communities.

There is nothing else that needs our attention more. None of us will come to the end of our earthly time and wish we spent more days in an office or lost in anger; weʼll wish for more time with those we love; weʼll cherish our good memories. Love is the most precious commodity on earth; itʼs free and the more we give the more it multiplies.

It is truly the superpower we carry inside.], So love as this is the only way youʼll be complete.ʼʼ

Alice nodded and started considering Kuinaʼs advice, maybe she would be complete if found Love she thought.

ʼʼOkay, itʼs time to go to sleep. You will be on guard first Iʼm tired and this happened quite often recently maybe Iʼm sick? Well, whatever.ʼʼ Kuina yawned before going to the tent leaving Alice lost in thoughts.

She was trying to see if there was someone special in her life but she could only think of one person, Alexander her master, he is the only one closer to that title. Now that she thought about it was because of his choice she was still alive, at first she was considered a tool by him but it later changed and she was now part of the family.

The way the others looked at her changed, she felt more at home than in the beginning, and theyʼre present for her whenever she wanted.

Suddenly, she recalled an event that happened before they came here. One night she had a pretty scary nightmare and was trembling, really afraid, and Alex who was passing by noticed that something wasnʼt right and entered her room to comfort her.

Alice had been hugged before, but never like that day. There was something so warm, something that felt right, smelt right. She let her body sag, her muscles become loose. He gave her the respect of an equal but cradled her like a cherished child. In that embrace, she felt her worries lose their keen sting and her optimism raise its head from the dirt.

Perhaps the hope had been there all along, but without some love, it was trapped, like crystals in a stone. She felt him brush her hair back with his fingers and kiss her gently on the forehead. That night she slept like a child after Alex departed.

Upon recalling this episode unconsciously a smile bloomed on Aliceʼs face. It was a smile that played at the corners of her mouth and danced in her eyes. If Kuina was present she would be shocked by this because this smile resembled that of a girl thinking of her lover.

ʼʼMaybe he was there all along but it is now that I have started to take notice,ʼʼ Alice mumbled before taking out a book she was reading, like Incursio she had the hobby of reading to cultivate herself. Currently, she was reading a contemporary romance book ʼThe Alpha.ʼ

”{Thereʼs something about Carey that makes me feel so young inside, but not in a childish way. He wakes the pure side of me, the best side, all the facets of myself that only require love to be healthy and whole. Should I have eternity to be with this guy I would sink into serenity, just content to be close. Our energy vibrates in such a unique way, each the perfect complement of the other.

Iʼm not simply ”in love,” Iʼm well and truly smitten. Any other could only be a poor reflection, no more substantial than a shadow of the real thing. Carey is what makes my heart strong. His smile alone burnishes my soul into a beauty it could never have achieved on its own. Before we met I was one, now I am half, yet somehow so much more than I ever was before.}ʼʼ

Upon reading this passage Alice stopped closing the book she mumbled.

ʼʼMaybe I should try to get closer to master, maybe this way I can know what love is but first letʼs get closer, learn more about him while at the same learning more about how to make human expression as I believe this will come in handy for the future.ʼʼ

Tonight Alice decided to change in order to experience Love.